I WANT MY MOM!!!

Do you ever have one of those days where you wish you could have your mom? Well I am having one of those days. I want her here so badly right now. I guess I am just having one of those days where you really want to talk and there is no one that can listen or really help. I thought if I came home and cooked a good dinner tonight that would help. But it didn't because I didn't cook since my grandpa is not feeling well. He just doesn't look or is acting like grandpa tonight to me.

I love my mom so much and with all the crying I did today, I want her here. I want to be able to see her or something. I miss her so much and we are so connected. I guess she just knows when I need her and is willing to help me out however she can. I just need her and even though I have people that I work with who can help me, I just need her right now.

I just want someone in my life that can help make it all better. I remember being little and having a tummy ache, and who would fix it? My mom she could fix anything that was wrong with me.

I also miss that little one named LeRoy. He is getting so big and with the way my life is who knows when I will get to see him. Sometimes I think it will never happen. We will see.

Hopefully the week gets better soon.

My Life This Week

Drama!!!
I planned on being Drama free this year. That is not going to happen. Why is it that girls and guys can't be friends after breaking up? I want to be friends so bad, but I just don't know if it can work. Well anyways, my week . First the week started normal and then I started leaving school later and later each night and with a bigger headache each night. Finally last night I came home and just decided I don't know if I can do this anymore. I have decided that one day I would love to get married and have kids. Last night I realized I can't even make it home to cook for my grandpa. How can I get married and take care of that? Well I guess marriage is overrated right? Why do we need to get married? Then today, I found out that my ex boyfriend had his appendix burst last night. So I feel horrible and I totally am going to try and go see him this week. So yet the drama will continue!

Good Things!
One of my good friends is going to start his open business. I am so excited for him. Also, I am going to take charge of my life and make it go the way I want to. How am I going to do that? I am going to take the first step and ask someone to go on a date that I am interested in. I am tired of complaining and thinking I am not good enough, so I am going to do it on Monday. Wish me luck.

Sorry for the venting, but I had to let it out. This week has been one to not do over.

Picture Tag

So Carolyn decided to Tag me so everyone could see my house. Well just so you all know, it is my grandparents house. I am living with my grandpa. So here we go.

1 Self Potrait

See what happens when you don't have to work. You look horrible!

2 Kitchen Sink

Everything is in the dishwasher, except the cup I just used.

3 Favorite Room

I don't spend a lot of time in this room. I just know that my grandma loved this room. She has all of our pictures up and I love the way it is set up. People come over and we play pool and they ask me about my family. I guess when I miss my family I take a walk in there and I feel like I am with them all. I want a room like this in my house.

4 Laundry Room

I hate laundry but I love the fact that I have space to hang clothes that I can not dry in the drier.

5 Fridge

Can you tell that we just went shopping and the fridge is overfilled? We seem to do this every once in awhile.

6 Master Bath

This is actually my bathroom. Grandpa has the master bathroom. I love the jet powered tub I have. It is great.

7 Closet

It has loads of room and even has some of my grandpa's stuff in it, like his guns. But I love the hamper and the fact that I can hide my shoes on the door. It is great and my grandma did this for me. I need to work on organizing my clothes a bit better.

8 Favorite Shoes

I hate shoes and I can't stand ones I have to tie. So I love these because they were cheap and I can slip them right on and run out the door to school.

9 Favorite Part of My House

My grandma had these really cool light fixtures put in the house. See my grandpa built the house and everything is how my grandma wanted it. She has three of these lights and they look so cool on at night.

10 Dream Vacation

I have already been here to Toledo Spain, but I want to go back. I loved the small town feeling and the people there. This is where I wish I could go someday and possibly live there.

New Kids On The Block

I don't know how many of you were big fans of New Kids On The Block, but this summer they came out with a new song and I love it. They are also a group again and are on tour. It just so happens in October they are going to be in Las Vegas. I want to see them so, so, so bad. So I am going to try and save and go to it. I can't wait!!!!

Here is a picture of them!

Saturday Morning Breakfast

Since we all are teachers and decided we could not waste another weekend, Cindy and I decided we needed to do something fun. So we all got together and went to breakfast, which was so good and then went to see Mama Mia! after that. Both were a good idea. Plus we did some shopping. The whole gang did breakfast together and then the movie. In the pictures are, Erika, John, Cindy, Maria, Carolyn, Stephanie, and I.

Pictures of My Room and Birthday Surprise

Here are the pictures I promised of my classroom. There are not a lot, but I will take more. Life has been real busy lately. Here are some pictures of the cupcakes I got on Monday for my birthday. Jeri brought them to me and they came from my grandpa, mom, and dad. Thanks guys!!!!

24 Years Of My Life

Today is my birthday and I am offically 24 years old. I can't believe that I have been alive for 24 years and all of the things I have been through. So I thought I would do my 24 favorites of my life.

24. Spending time in Iron River
23. Going to Wisconsin Dells
22. Going to College in Alaska
21. Spending a week in Barrow Alaska, Top of the World
20. Spending every summer with my grandparents
19. Going to Spain when I was in high school
18. Going to Germany
17. Moving to Arizona
16. Driving across Country
15. Seeing my baby cousin Trevor, David, LeRoy,Danielle, Shaylynn, Tyler, Kyle, and all the others for the first time
14. Going to the zoos
13. Meeting all of my wonderful friends for the first time
12. Teaching Second grade
11. Seeing the smiles on all of my students faces every day
10. Learning to drive
9. Spending time with my great grandparents
8. Spending time with my grandma
7. Going to Vegas with friends
6. Going to NSYNC concert
5. Driving across country with my grandpa
4. Going to Juneau on a ferry
3. Student teaching
2. My school and people I work with
And my all time favorite (as you can tell some things are a struggle)................
1. Being with my parents, family, and friends. I am sure this is everyone's favorite but as I look back over my life, these are the people I have spend the most of my life with. They have always been there for me. For example, today I recieved 48 cupcakes with 5 minutes left to my class for the day. So I saved them for after school. A bunch of us teachers said and talked and ate some of the cupcakes. Now I have the rest for tonight with my grandpa and friends. I will post pictures of the cupcakes later. They are in the shape of an apple. I will have to post about that later so you know why. Let's just say it is part of my classroom theme. So pictures and more later.